Mr Messy has been extremely busy at OUR shop and with photo shoots recently, which is great for the business but not so great for me being on my own all the time. Due to our financial situation at the moment we are trying to limit our spending to essentials only, so I've been staying home all the time so as not to use more petrol than needed. The trouble is this combination has left me feeling bored, lonely and fed up. I reached the end of my tether with Princess Lollipop's sleepless nights, luckily she then started to sleep a little better, so that isn't too bad at the moment. I'm trying not to let it get to me, but I'm also feeling like the least important member of the family. Lots of little, petty things are getting to me, like the heating being off during the day (and its been perishingly cold) meaning me and Princess Lollipop shiver all day despite numerous layers. Mr Messy comes home from OUR shop tired and sits on the sofa and leaves me to deal with everything the littlies want or need, just when I need a break too. When Princess Lollipop is in her cot and we hear her wake up it is ALWAYS me that has to go and deal with her, no matter what I'm doing or watching on the TV, making me feel like what I do is not deemed as important as what everyone else is doing. The last straw was on Friday when I took Little Prince swimming. Usually either Mr Messy or since she's been home Mrs LMS, come over to the Swimming Pool car park and pick Princess Lollipop up and take her to OUR shop for the duration of the lesson. This has been the routine for the last couple of years that Little Prince has had private lessons. However, last Friday neither of them turned up!! Leaving me trying to wrangle a grumpy Princess Lollipop and less than co-operative Little Prince by myself, and I had forgotten to bring the buggy, so had to keep running after Princess Lollipop as she made a dash for the pool!! When I told Mr Messy how upset I was he said he was sorry, but then said I should have rung him to remind him!! After all this time, and the fact it is marked on our shared online calendar, I didn't think I had to remind him every week!! Again it made me feel like I am the bottom of the pile, with everything and everyone else more important than I am.
I know this is a moaning, whinge but that's how I'm feeling right now. Tomorrow could be different, fingers crossed!!